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Sunday, January 10, 2010

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Apparently, this is how the first week of the year is going to greet me.

Two deaths (my dog and one of my favorite professors in college).

One end of friendship.

And a waiter spilling iced tea all over me.

Worst weekend ever.

I have told myself to be happier this year. To smile more. But I just can't help but be emotional over all the things that happened today. This past weekend. This past few days.

I always put on a happy face, but I'm still just a man. I get hurt. And when these things happen, you can't help but feel sad.

These days make me feel alone. It's depressing. It's not a day that I want to relive. I hate it. This is a low point in my life.

I know I'd rather just forget about this day and move on. And I will, I promise. But I want to remember this day. This is the day, I'm brought back to earth. The night I go to bed with tears on my pillow. It's the saddest day of my life.

And there's no way I'm going to let this day happen to me ever again.

There's no other way but up.

26 comments:

justin said...

that's how life works. cry. mourn. then live.

rudeboy said...

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Mike said...

He was not only a great professor but also a great adviser and a friend.

May he rest in peace.

Cheer up! More to go with 2010. ;-)

Herbs D. said...

it will all turn out good sweetie, dont worry :D

paci said...

life does not choose when to throw things both good and bad into our direction. during trying times, may you ponder on things to be reflected and so in the end you will see the silver-lining. =)

red the mod said...

No sweetness can ever exist without the bitter that serves as its foil. No beauty ever be recognized without the wretched and foul. Life is a plethora of dualities.

Endings are mere beginnings. You are still here, and as long as you never forget the memories you shared with them, and lessons learned and earned from them, it's like they never left at all.

Be strong. Chin up. We are mirrors of our own destiny. We write the poetry of our hearts in each passing day we survive. And the choice to write a comedy over a tragedy is one we must do every single day.

Smile. You'll discover that its easier when you do.

Jay Quiambao said...

As they say: when you're down, there's no way to go but up.

CHeer up :)

Manech said...

There's always the silver lining: if you can get past this easily, then you're pretty much prepared for the whole year.

Hope you feel better soon.

MkSurf8 said...

*hugs*

grieve. cry. feel the pain. then snap out of it.
lots of things to be excited about. more people to love. =)

anteros' dominion said...

learn to smile more

i agree you can make it

in God's grace

dabo said...

kaya pa din yan..kaw pa!

atsaka American Idol na!!!

Chuckie said...

This too shall pass. The day would come you would just laugh off what just happened. You'll be fine, don't worry :)

MakMak said...

Morning Engel. =)

the geek said...

it was just one week.

if i am correct, there are still 51 weeks before 2010 ends...

Andrei Alba said...

for so long now, that is the same thoughts that are instilled in my mind.

or so i just imagine.

i hope everything will turn out right next time.

learning is part of our life.

thanks for sharing. an idea popped.

john stanley said...

roll with the sadness but be sure to bounce back.

life is a bitch and we should be tougher bitches... =)

lee said...

don't let it get to you, engel.

just remember that tomorrow always offers something new to be happy about :)

"there's always sunshine after the rain"

wanderingcommuter said...

aaawww condolence po...

domjullian said...

sarap ng iced tea!

Darc Diarist said...

hugs hugs hugs...

Kane said...

Engel,

"Golden dreams and silver medals, beauty marks and scars. That is what we got."

Engel, I was hoping I'd meet you sa party last sat. If you went, your weekend would probably be a very different one =)

But this is what you got. So put on your happy face, because as I've learned, sometimes, you gotta fake it, until you make it.

Hug,
Kane

citybuoy said...

"There's no other way but up."

so true. hope u feel better.

Maxwell Flux said...

yeah, shit happens sometimes.

the harder you fall, the higher you bounce. :)

Alex said...

Good things shall come.. Just keep hoping.

Chingoy said...

so true... "There's no other way but up."

The Constant Bonsaist said...

there are things beyond our control.