Everywhere today, Engel's been reading alot of cheesy posts. A lot of hook-ups. There are some cutesy anecdotes about the writers and their special someone. There are those who are hopeful for a more romantic future. And some are just super cheesy.
Engel's been in the blog universe long enough to spot trends in this his virtual home. If someone's in love, chances are in the next few days you'll be reading alot of love posts. When someone is brokenhearted, other people will follow suit and write depressing stories. If there's a blog war between two bloggers, there will be posts written to defend one side, even if the blogger does not even know any of the warring parties.
The common theme he's read today got him thinking. Should this make him hopeful? Or is he going to be depressed?
He's not a scrooge. He's happy that alot of people, straight or otherwise are finding love and keeping it. But like he said a few posts earlier, this is upsetting because he still has no one. He misses the feeling of 'kilig'. Of having butterflies in your stomach.
He wants to send text messages asking someone if he's already eaten. He misses being asked how was his day. He wants to be able to hold someone's hand. He wants to know how it feels again having an argument because he forgot it's their anniversary. He misses saying sorry, and making up with his partner. He wants to be able to take someone out of the city for a date. He wants to walk with someone on the way home. He wants to take a time out from work to sneak a text message to the one. He wants to be in love.
Being single is not exhausting. But it would really be nice to be a part of a couple every once in awhile.
This is just me, I think even if I'm with somebody I'd probably still be a drama king. It's human nature, never getting satisfied with what we have.
And Makmak, yeah, this time I'm depressed. I'm not denying.
5 months ago