The first impression of people about me when asked is that I look like a snob.
I often say it isn't true and that the people who knows the real me would say it's quite the opposite.
But then I realized if the saying isn't true, then I should have like alot of friends. I should be like a social butterfly and not a wallflower.
The truth is, I probably am a snob. I possibly am suplado. And that I'm just in denial.
But is that really wrong, if you're just protecting yourself from being hurt or being used by people you treat as friends? I mean if you've been through that before and are avoiding making the same mistakes, that is reason enough to put up some walls, right?
I know I should start to put up some more faith in the people I meet. Not everyone has some bad intentions in befriending people. But how do we know, really?
There are people, eventhough they say that what they offer is genuine, you can't help but feel creeped out by what they say or do. There are people who seems cool at first, but they flake out and leave you in times you need someone to talk to. And then there are those who would say they welcome meeting you, but their action speaks otherwise.
I don't take that against those people. It's not my loss, I think I'm awesome (given the chance). I move on. But still, I learn.
So am I really a snob?
Yeah. Maybe I am.
We put on walls so that we'll know who are willing to break through them to get to us.
4 months ago