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Friday, October 15, 2010

MIXED FEELINGS

RELIEF
I'm no longer in a relationship with a teenager.

I think I can breathe a sigh of relief now. Before when someone asks me how old is the guy I'm with, I was kinda reluctant giving out his age. They always tease me of being a cougar, a pedophile, if given the chance, someone might even call Bantay Bata 163.

I don't have to worry about it now. Not anymore.

We did not break up.

He's turning 20 this Sunday.

STRESS
Sometimes dating the Kid is kinda stressful. You see he's still in college, and you know what that means: term papers, projects, the whole lot. And being the supportive boyfriend that I am, I help out.

There are times at work I'm so stressed out, I want to go back to school. But sometimes when I help out, I change my mind. College is hard.

Although I like helping him out. We have a similar course in college, and my marketing skill is a bit rusty. So helping out makes me feel great. I'm way outdated in terms of Marketing, but it's nice to have your brain working if only a little.

ANXIETY
Sometimes I feel anxious writing about my relationship here in my blog. I don't want to seem like the type of person who's in a relationship only for the first time. I didn't like reading them in others, and I don't want to be that kind of guy.

But then again, I'm learning in this relationship. I'm growing up. And I blog because it's always great to read back on how much I've changed.

So yeah, puke all you want, be bitter, be happy, I don't really care. I like writing about my Kid. And I don't think I'll be stopping anytime soon.

9 comments:

rudeboy said...

Writing can be a form of therapy. engel. As you indicated, your thoughts and feelings are there in black-and-white, captured in a visible form that lends itself to self-assessment and reflection.

So this is a good thing, innit?

And happy birthday to your little boo.

Soltero said...

ehhe, ako inggit ako!! ahhaha :)

happy bday sa papa mo! :P

Jinjiruks said...

hindi ka naman nag blog para sa kanila, kundi tungkol sau lang. haberdey kay kid, bakit ba, masarap kaya pag bata.

Niel Camhalla said...

"I didn't like reading them in others."

After a while I realized that all the dramatics was so trivial. I mean, a lot of people have been there and done that. Nabasa ko na sa isang blog, mababasa ko pa uli sa iba, as if my intention talaga manggaya. Initially it was enjoyable but we still need to grow up even in the way we blog, the way we think and the way we live life.

Kaya I let go of all my personal blogs. Although I write personal stuff from time to time but I think I'll delete those entries soon.

Jay Quiambao said...
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Jay Quiambao said...

Havent heard from you for a long time. Happy Birthday though to him. take care of each other :)

Gaspard said...

wow! your kid and I almost has the same birthday! I turned 21 na... sigh... anyways, I love reading what you write here... hehehe... keep on posting! :D

Kane said...

Sometimes, you get surprised by what you had written before, Engel, no?

How love has grown... I hope the celebration was worth of a 20-year olds; all fireworks.

Kane

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