I think I wrote about this yesterday: when it comes to relationships, mine usually had a deadline of one month. One month, and then it's over.
There are different reasons why they end. But mostly it's because of me. I quit the person. I felt caged. Or it doesn't seem to work anymore. The relationships end when the honeymoon phase is over. If me and my partner had a fight, that normally spelt the end of the relationship.
Yesterday, me and the kid had an argument.
The reason isn't that important, and I'll be vague about it. He kind of had an issue about some of my friends' attitude about us. So anyway, that pissed him off big time. I took issue on his response because I loved him and wanted him to be a part of my world, but he seemed to have not been interested in it because of what had been said.
I know it may not sound or read much but it was the first time we really had something like that. It wasn't nasty or anything. But on my part, it was really heavy.
Old Engel may have finally found a chink in the armor. The past few days they haven't really had alot to talk about. School started, and the kid doesn't have alot of free time anymore. And it'll definitely be less once classes properly begin. Add the fact he's seeing some flaws in the kid. I may have reasons already to bail on the relationship.
But I didn't.
The thought never occurred to me. What occupied my head during the few hours we weren't talking was how to fix things. Not once did quitting come to mind.
To make the long story short, we patched things up. We're good. I'd even dare to say that we're even better.
I know, you're probably scratching your head right now thinking what the hell's the point of this post?
I guess what I really wanted to say is: in a relationship, the moment the honeymoon phase ends that's when the test of commitment begins. And right now (and this sounds corny/cheesy), I'm fully committed to make this relationship work.
The one month curse will be broken. I'm pretty sure of it.
5 months ago